Healing is Boring TF Out Of Me

What a luxury to even get to this point! Harrrumph.

I’m further down the path of self-discovery, healing and all that janky stuff than I have ever been.

Yet, I keep self-sabotaging. Doing the same old stupid things that throw me off.

Whether it is physical, financial, emotional or tripping myself up mentally (and that one’s easy to do. Just open social media and go look at a few of those people who are REALLY getting under your skin. You know who you’re thinking of!), I keep throwing wrenches in my own path.

Weeding through the self-esteem issues helped a lot.

Healing from the trauma has rocketed me forward.

Confidence building threw me into the path of opportunities that I could have only imagined before.

Yeah, all of that has helped.

Immensely!

Still, I keep self-sabotaging.

Why? Because I have too much control. I have too much safety. Too much mitigated risk.

I’m bored.

I’m being smart and practical and making smooth moves.

The right moves.

I’m bored.

Instead of reaching for my self-sabotage stuff, I’m facing this.

What risks can I take now “before” I feel ready?

What scary creative thing can I try?

What relational risk should I take?

What new experience should I seek?

No more self-sabotage because I’m bored. Seriously, talk about ridiculous!

So, is your self-sabotage fear? Lack of self-esteem?

Or is it mere boredom?

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