Side benefit? Your creativity will explode :)

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Yes, the world is a bit of a mangled jigsaw puzzle right now. I don’t need to go into it and rag on it once again.

Much computer memory has been fried over the messy, painful and yet incredibly transformative time that is 2020.

(Also how the hell am I…

In which I get paranoid and pathologize myself to death.

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I am such a paranoid control freak while journaling.

These thoughts, they just smash into my head with paranoia.

I mean, I have some good reasons to be paranoid. Like the Communist regime style…

I am not a victim

I carry mace, two tasers and an easily accessible fury.

I am not a victim.

I practice saying no, leaving people when they keep going.

I am not a victim.

I feel my feelings and turn them into art.

I am not a victim.


Believe it or not, there are benefits to even this aggravating little bugger.

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Anxiety. You silly wretch!

I thought that I had it under control with the right amounts of exercise, supplements and working hard to master my sleep.

Seriously, I’ve been killing it.

Or so I thought.

But the last three days? Man, it just hits out of nowhere.

I’ve been stalled…

What a luxury to even get to this point! Harrrumph.

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I’m further down the path of self-discovery, healing and all that janky stuff than I have ever been.

Yet, I keep self-sabotaging. Doing the same old stupid things that throw me off.

Whether it is physical, financial, emotional or tripping myself up mentally (and that one’s easy to do. Just…

What do we think this even is, anyway? The resistance does come up.

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There are things that help me during this recovery process from massive trauma.

(C-PTSD, PTSD, Bipolar, Major Depressive Disorder, Anxiety…blah blah blah everyone likes to slap a label on it._

And it IS a recovery process! I’ve already made incredible strides and will continue to do so.

Because I choose…

Why are you making such a big deal out of it?! Your parents LOVE YOU.

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You’re an upper middle-class kid.

Everyone thinks your family is perfect because your siblings are wearing matching sweaters.

You have photo albums full of memories and smiles. So carefully crafted.

Your mother believes in “modest dress” and “children should be seen and not heard.

Of course that works well to…

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Pain is the greatest teacher.

(But also OW)

Because we humans are not gods.

(Well that SUCKS)

We don’t achieve this state of growth unless the pain helps us to remember.

(Enough that it sticks in your head like the SchoolHouse Rock theme song.)

Instead, we go after comfort.


The challenge to stop the self-obsession of performance anxiety & just start living.

This is the blog I’ve been aching to start for years. Yes, literally years.

Did I? Nope. Did I even let myself read, write and enjoy food as much as I wanted? Hell nope.

Okay if you know me in real life, you may know that I have a thing…

Yes, I love sniffing the lumber up close and personal. Go ahead, judge me.

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There’s a siren voice in home construction sites that calls to me.

I don’t know whether it’s the possibilities ahead or the wonderful peace after everyone has left. (Perhaps it’s some magical combination of the two)

But it draws me to it like the magnet on one of those huge…

Caitlin Dragon 🐲

Email launch specialist & executor! I write about food, technology, mental health, travel, TV & love. Always dreaming of an ever-more wonderful world…

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